Monday, June 1, 2009

Dont Know..

I have come to the realization that I have no idea what is going on.... Seriously this year has been the year of change.. Okay so I thought that was last year, oh maybe the year before... Cant help but wonder, what in the world am I suppose to be doing??? I must admit, little things don't bother me much, at least as much as they use to... I do still stress, but not so much... Don't worry about tomorrow very often, too busy hustling through today... I would try to out guess God, but I learned that lesson already, no matter what direction you think he is leading you in, you will surely be wrong. I am too tired to guess anyways... I do miss my CF surfer girl.. She has been on my mind allot lately. Back in the hospital, and not feeling so well.. CF is kinda a lonely world I have discovered...


  1. While it's true you can't guess where God is taking you, you can always trust it is to a better place. Perhaps not better the way you envisioned or desired, but better - He is making you a better person, stronger because you have to depend on him, more alive because you realize your life is not your own or that you are in control of it. For me at least, it is the dark, lonely moments of my life where I really learn and gain a perspective I would otherwise have missed. Life is a complex, beautiful mess - never perfect - but never void of opportunity to become the type of people God created us to be. And in my experience, it is those perspective-changing-moments of life that I've found new meaning, purpose and mission for my life. It has given me hope that if I can get through this, then it will be a hope and a blessing for others who are struggling. You may be coming into a new meaning and mission for your life.

    There is always hope for tomorrow.

  2. Dear Kevin,

    Thank you so much for your kinds words... As I often feel like I am on a roller coaster ride, when I hit the bottom of the ride, God always sends me a confirmation in all different ways that he is right here with me on my journey... Today that confirmation came from you... Thank you... It meant allot, and shoved me right up the next incline...


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